I hope you’re doing well. I feel like this letter is overdue. Who would have thought that we would be where we are now? Growing up we have always been told that some things do not work out like they were supposed to. I just didn’t think that would apply to us. Even though you’re no longer my best friend, I still have nights where I want to tell you everything, share exciting and sad moments with you, or just reminisce on all the stupid crap we did together. There are a few things I feel like I should tell you. I’m sorry. I miss you. Thank you. I wish only the best for you.
I’m sorry. Mostly, I’m sorry that things just aren’t the same. I’m sorry we can’t FaceTime or text each other every day. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you when you needed it. I’m sorry I can’t be there for you when you need it. I’m sorry that I might have cared too much. I’m sorry for all the times I should have said sorry and didn’t. I’m sorry we didn’t get to travel the world together. I’m sorry we aren’t where we dreamed we would’ve been.
I miss you. I’m not afraid to say it. To anyone. No doubt, I always will. I’m not sure you feel the same way, and that’s ok. There’s a lot to miss – the good and the bad. I miss having the sister my parents never had. I miss my parents asking me what you’re up to and why you’re not at my house. I miss making new memories with you. I miss talking about the old memories with you. I miss endlessly laughing together. I miss your family. I hope they’re doing well too. To be honest, I could go on forever about the things I miss.
Good Lord, thank you. Thank you for countless tears from laughter. Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for showing me the qualities to look for in a friend. Thank you for pushing and believing in me. Thank you for letting me in. Thank you for staying up with me until 5 in the morning studying, gossiping, and watching Grey’s Anatomy. Thank you for holding me when I cried over stupid things and boys (even though they’re basically the same thing). Thank you for turning the radio all the way up and singing along. Thank you for being my best friend. Thank you for being you.
I wish only the best for you. When people ask me how you are doing, I tell them you’re doing really well and living life to the fullest, because that is all I can picture for you. I may not know what is going on anymore, but that doesn’t mean I can’t imagine. I mean, you were the one who taught me to embrace my imagination. I still (and always will) believe you deserve the world. I hope you have someone who holds you when you cry from laughter and pain. I wish for someone, maybe your new best friend, to experience the way you make someone laugh when they’re sad. I wish for your new best friend to love and support you, but to push you past your comfort zone. I wish for you to know you are stronger than you thought, mentally and physically. I wish for you to have a best friend, lover, or person that makes you laugh so hard you cry, who makes you happier than you’ve ever been, and someone who holds your hand and heart not only when you need it, but at all times.
I would not be the person I am today without you being my best friend.
You should know this already, but incase you forgot: forever & always in my heart,
Your Former Best Friend.