Dear Current Angel,
I love you very much. I’ve been waiting to write this for awhile, but at the same time waiting for me to be okay while writing this. I’m not sure if that moment will ever come. I hope you knew how very much you meant to me know how very much you mean to me. You’ve already become the graceful angel I knew you’d become at the time of writing this. Even as every year passes, I will never forget how very much you loved me or how much you love in heaven as you did on Earth.
I know you’re in a better place, but I wish I could see your face; dreams don’t hold steady. I feel your radiant smile, but it stings the most when the sun is shining. I could never forget about your enriching laugh and smooth tone. The echoes scream; I wonder if they can hear it too. Life never seems to be consistent and when the world starts moving backwards and your hand is not here to hold, I pray that you give me grace. If you could hear me and we could talk over a cup of tea here’s what I would say to you:
You’ve never looked better. The big guy upstairs must be treating you right. I would do anything to relive a moment like this. Even if it was when times were hard; when I had to help you in bed as you were wearing thin or even when you forgot who I was. Give me your hand; I’ve missed your warmth. I’m probably falling apart saying this, but when people say I remind them of you, I know I am doing something right. I wish I could see you the day I walk down the aisle, but I’ll make sure to tell him and the kids that you never left. Thinking back on the past, I realize that time has flown by too fast. And I know this won’t last forever, but you’re not someone I’ll forget. Never. When I was young with an open heart you kept me grounded, now your love keeps me surrounded. This moment lights up the dark, but I can’t see how you have the patience to watch over a girl like me.
You may be asking me why I’m not drinking any of my tea, and it’s because the moment it’s gone, so are you.
I guess beautiful things never last.
I can’t keep you for long, paradise is waiting. I love you.